I can only hope that they’ll like my audition enough to consider calling me in for something else!

Fingers are crossed!

Also, on the acting- front, I’ve been so pre-occupied with my “Glee” audition, that I forgot to mention that I was able to act with Shirley Jones last week!!!  It was SO SUPER exciting!!!  She’s been one of my idols since I was a kid- from her musical theatre days (LOVE “OKLAHOMA!”)  So, this opportunity came up thru a friend to work with her!  She and her husband Marty Ingles are working on a reality show pilot, and needed a little bit part for it.  Long story short, it was a freebie in the $ aspect, but to experience working with one of my IDOLS!!!  PRICELESS!!!!  BTW- I LOVE HER!!!  She’s a SWEETHEART!!!  Enjoy the shot I got of her, Marty and my “daughter” played by Annie.

Along with talking my manager into submitting me as well.

The plan is that I’m going to submit to their standards that they’re looking for, which is just the statement and the song.  Then, in addition, I’m going to put together another video demo and include some dance stuff in it, which I’ll hand off to my manager, and have her submit directly.  At least that’s my game plan.  I got till April 26th for the online submission.  Better get crack-a-lating!

It’s been over 63 days since I first started blogging about this, and now it’s the moment of truth.  The only problem is I’m beyond the age limit for what they’re really looking for.  But, it’s the ONLY opportunity I have to be seen by casting.  What should I do?  Anyone?

I hate breaking the rules, but I feel like sometimes you have to in order to accomplish huge things you care so deeply about.  Right?  Oh man, this is gonna be a little conflicted for me, I know it.  Not only that, but my lil’ idea for my video doesn’t fly within the regulations of the audition rules.  All they want is a personal statement and a selected song from their list.  In a way, it makes things a little easier, but in another way, it totally blows apart my idea.

What to do?

So, I’m beginning to lose hope.  Things are feeling very grim lately on the acting front.  The only productive thing I did this week was finally meet with one of my choreographer friends and she taught me a lil’ routine for my audition video.  I’ve practiced once or twice, but that’s about it.

I’m feeling super discouraged about it all as I “simmer” in my meaningless jobs.  Feeling that it all sucks right now.  Not in a good place at the moment.

BTW- I tried to find a photo, but it’s not working.  Don’t really have the energy to figure it out.  Sorry.

Still waiting on the audition information for “Glee”.

Otherwise, I haven’t been here this past week, cause I’ve had a lot of “other” things going on.  Sometimes life and other jobs can really get in the way.

Since last week, I got in my second application for a directing fellowship- this time to HBO.  I began my teacher training for pilates which was literally ALL last weekend- Fri. night, all day Saturday and all day Sunday.  Listening to lecturing about anatomy and then doing mat exercises and breaking them down till I was red in the face.  Then, because of that, I hurt my back from having to sit too long on the floor  Went to physical therapy on Monday for that… Had some MAJOR problems with one of my day jobs- glitches with computer software that really affected my ability to do work.  Got my hair cut to try and set myself apart from the rest (per manager and agent), and tried doing some new headshots with the hubby which didn’t quite work out as well as I had hoped.  Part of that is I’m still trying to figure out how to wear my hair at this shorter length.  The best part is when my husband got upset with me cause I can never slow down!  Hey!  I just don’t have time to slow down.

Well, clearly I need to make time.  It’s a very fine line I walk trying to balance it all in.

On top of everything else, I realized that I haven’t really been focused on one of my main goals- which is taking care of myself- a) watching my diet and b) exercising.  Part of that is the back-problem, but the rest is all psychological.  I’ve got to wrap my brain around the idea that I’m an athlete and I need to take my training as seriously as an olympic athlete.  That means A LOT of things.

So, that’s about it- for now.  I think it’s time for me to get myself together by creating more time for me and the family.  Focus-time.  Let’s remember what this is all about and not get bogged down by the “other” stuff and let it get in my way.  Will report on how that goes very soon!

I recently submitted an application to the Disney/ABC Directing fellowship program, and just late last night I got my submission in for the HBO/ DGA Directing fellowship.  These are really cool programs that take a few people a year and allow them to shadow professional directors who are working on their various shows!!  It would be an AMAZING opportunity to see what it would be like and also to see what kind of shows I would be most interested in directing!  I’ll find out by the early summer if they’re interested.  I have to say, it was kind of a blast putting together my application.  I felt like I was in college again  But, it gave me an excuse to remaster a film I did that I feel very passionate about.  So, it’s ALL GOOD!!!!

Also, I went to my singing class tonight.  I’m really learning a lot just by watching the other students, actually.  I get to sing again next week, so we’ll see if I can control the nerves any better…

Still no word on the “Glee” online submissions

Been super stressed with my “day jobs” lately, and I’ve got to let them go and not lose anymore sleep over them.  Time to remember to honor myself more.

I also was a bit discouraged when I went to dance class last week and hurt my back again.  I have something called spondylothesis where the vertebra in my spine are slightly off.  It’s not too bad, but I always have to be concerned about not making it worse.  I’ve been getting physical therapy for it just recently, and I really hope it helps!

One different thing- I’ve been chatting with my manager regarding marketing myself a little differently.  Got my hair cut- shoulder length this week.  That was kinda big!  Haven’t decided if I like it curly or straight with it- I’m still playing around with it.  Now, I have to get some new headshots though… Oh well…

As for “Glee”, I submitted myself for a little something I saw.  They were looking for a photo only of a woman with shoulder length or shorter hair for the show.  I sent my temporary short-haired photo…  hey ya never know…

Still no info. on their site about the online auditions.

Since doing this experiment, I’ve really begun to realize that by simply “putting myself out there” it opens up opportunity in general.

One thing is that I met a parent at the school I work at who supposedly works as a choreographer on the show “Glee”!  Interesting, huh?  I didn’t know that of course until AFTER I met him, but you can bet the next time I see him, I’ll be sure to tell him what I’m doing!!   Hey!  Ya never know!!  He might be a great connection to help me get seen.

But, even more, I’ve felt so inspired and creative since this undertaking.  It’s opening up other opportunities that may have not been possible had I not been doing this.  I’m also applying for two directing fellowship programs, which has forced me to put together some of my work as a director.  Also, I had a great, informative meeting re: acting, which has put me into a business mindset.  Although, it might not pan out (as far as the meeting went) I liked it because it’s forced me to confront some marketing issues I’ve been thinking about over the last year.

Bottom line is it’s just so great to feel pro-active in my career.  For a goal that seemed SO IMPOSSIBLE, suddenly, it feels obtainable now.  Funny how that works.